pain caused by a sweet heart

im hurting to much this is all to much to take in you text me when you can then dont really text me back when i need to talk and when i want your adivce the aura that makes me feel better and happy. But no fuck that you stopped texting eventually you texted me saying hey i ran to my phone all happy and exicted then just got depressed later cause u never basically reply to me or i have to keep the convo going its stupid this is how i feel i am saying "fuck this right now" "your going to be the reason i go on aint depressent pills well at least one of them you made me happy easily now thats gone fuck this" "i may be done with guys for awhile" i feel like i lost you but i respect you and her just go be happy forget me not or do at this point in time i don't give a fucking shit im hurting in the heart its bleeding with in sweet heart you did this in away it can be fixed yet time may just be what i neeed with eeeverything sorry for taking this out on you but i need to let it come out and not destory me sowwie sweet heart - 3/7/10

ice cold becomes warm hearted

ur eyes are amazing more amazing then the night's sky filled with twinkling stars : ) i love to look into them deeply they capture me after they do i dont feel so ice cold as i said "you were always cute" its true even when u were younger looking back at older pictures you have :P i dont know where i stand or who i am right now nothing really makes since to me right now exept one thing that you know and i know and a few others too. but to come out with more of the truth i was alway ask myself if i should say hi or hey when you were on at times i didn't because i didnt know if u were gunna log off haha i know its stupid but its me! i know i am a pretty cool girl! ur words not mine :P i love talking to you about anything even if its something i would not normally talk about. theres times i can wipe my smile off my face because ur in the presence. i can come to u to talk about things i cant always with others. going days or a day with out talking to you doesnt complete my day but ill live i mean i am still alive right? pokes my self yep im alive :) anyways ur just an amazing friend!! there is no word capable for describing you! you just make me feel warm hearted and times i get the butterflies then i know im not so ice cold with not a frozen heart. 3/2/10 - Jessica M.

quotes i wrote on 3/3/10

"Life is like a rose your born then slowly one by one a petal falls off till you wilt and are reborn"

"when you find someone who makes you happy hold on tight don't loose them if you don't hold on tight one day they may slip away"

"no one will understand you as best as yourself but its better to be understood some then rather nothing at all"

"when you face things right away and don't run away it makes you stronger plus things get better faster"

"Everyone has a heart but with in that heart there is different emotions, reading that heart is all the same, it has wings wrapped up in thorns with parts bleeding from all the pain they have endured the wings can't be broken free because no one is ever completely free from anything"

"to look at someone's outside beauty is a compliment but for them to open the heart to let another see with in is a pure true gift the rarest kind you can give for one to see the beauty with in"

"they say a diamond is a girl's best friend and they last forever don't believe that for a second be her best friend its better than a keepsake because your reall the diamond is not"

"we are given one heart to hold the other heart was given away to another because they are the key to your heart to open and love"

"loving is powerful but to love is different than to love yourself"

"no one is ever truly happy read someone's eyes then try to read their heart yet you can not because they have been hurt to many times to tell you the story"